Feeling Ill

Feeling Ill

I don’t feel good today, God

Today I’m going to:

Pray for the healing that You give

Only through Your grace and love, shall I ever live

Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Feeling ill, whether acutely ill for a short time or chronically ill, is devastating. The effects can dig deeply into our being, eroding our spirit, etching ugly scars into our heart and defeating us to the point of deep, dark depression.

 

It is easy to question God when it comes to illness. As I have suffered chronic illness for years, I have always believed in what Jesus spoke at the end saying “it is finished”. Those three words to me supported all that He had taught his disciples about healing, teaching, faith, love, God and everything else.

 

We are told that “by His stripes we are healed”. So why, then, do we not always heal? Why is it that I still have the illness that has since compiled itself into other chronic illnesses.

 

And then I just understood. By His stripes I am healed. In this time of my illness, I have drawn closer to God than I ever would have drawn had life kept going along as it was. Comfortable for the most part, health wise.

 

In my illness, I have needed God. God has patiently worked with me on my spirit. I have eliminated things that offended God, that hurt my own life. I have believed more and more. I have been striving to share His love, to gently allow others to see the love He gives me in my life. My life is His testimony of overcoming to becoming the person He has planned for me to be all along. I have far to go, but I now see that the healing is not always as we picture it, but rather as He has planned.

 

Ps 103:3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases

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55 thoughts on “Feeling Ill”

    1. no no – it is just a post about feeling ill in general.. but I do have a nasty kidney stone again. May need to go to emerg today if it doesn’t stop, since it’s been five days now. 😦

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        1. Thank you dear one, you too! Have a great weekend.
          All of my posts on the devotional are meant to be general, but they all do come from a place of some reality whether now or in the past of my life.
          xo

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  1. Dear Easter–this is an anointed post, sister!! Praying fervently for you today–that kidney stone issue of yours is hurting me, from here, and I’m calling on the Name above all names, JESUS. I’d like to print this post–for myself, and for my cousin who is 75 and doesn’t know computers/blogs, etc. God bless you as you draw near to Him, His grace, His healing, His unfailing everlasting love–and His mind which is above all we can ever understand. Much, much love to you, Caddo

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    1. I am so honoured. Thank you sos much.. (Caddo?) Much love to you and thanks for your encouragement. It is God that inspires the things that I write.. so often I say – “wow, I never thought of it in this perspective before” and there i am writing it myself (by the hand of God).
      Bless you lots and lots and I pray that your cousin enjoys it.

      Much love back xo
      Easter

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      1. Yes, isn’t that fun when the Holy Spirit writes with our pens?!! I always say God is my writing partner and Editor. Caddo is my name (though not legally). Oh, and half-American is good–at least you know what I’m talking about, i.e. US holidays and such!

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        1. I lived there for a bit when I was in grade two as my grandparents were there. I was in Stamford CT and had a great time. I know most of the US holidays and I was even in a newspaper in Virginia on the bicentennial celebration holding a flag 🙂

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  2. I just saw this! I totally understand the chronic illness and living with it. I believe what you said by his stripes we WERE healed. I’ve been through a lot with Alex and then myself so I pray God’s faith, love and mercy surround you and cover you with his grace! 😀

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    1. Thank you so much Michelle Marie. I thank you for your prayers and your thoughts as they mean so much to me. You are wonderful. I was just admitted into the hospital about an hour ago got a really nasty kidney stone that looks like it might need minor surgery. It’s been bothering me a lot Sunday and now the kidney is a little bit swollen and that’s a good sign so they’ll probably do the surgery tomorrow. Hugs and love

      Easter 🌺😇🌺😇🌺

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      1. OH no are you in there now! That is very painful. I’m so sorry to hear that. I prayed for you and will continue to. I hope you get over this quickly. 2 weeks ago Alex was in the hospital and with a kidney infection polynephritis and she said it was so painful. I am so sorry. I am praying for you! Hugs and love to you!

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        1. Oh my gosh! Your poor Alwxa. She has been through so so much. I will keep her and you in my prayers. You’re such a wonderful woman sharing God’s love and beauty with everyone you meet don’t be discouraged, just keep doing what you’re supposed to and everything will work out. Yes I’m in the hospital. Darn stones!!!9

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          1. Hello dear Michelle Marie, I am still in the hospital. I had surgery this morning in which they were able to take out the storm as well as to drain the kidney which was already swelling with extra liquid. I certainly can’t say that I feel very well right now, however I know that the healing is coming and that the worst is over. Right now, I feel pretty rough but not anxious as yesterday.

            Much love to you and thank you so very much for your care your prayers and your love,

            Easter

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          2. OH my I thought about you all day today off and on and prayed for you each time I thought of you! Wow you are so brave! I wish I was there and I’d read to you or something. I don’t even know what to say I’m so moved by this! We are strong women aren’t we? You didn’t even act like it bothered you! That’s how I am. I had surgery one day and went home the same day and was sicker then dog but no one knew. So I pray you are not like me Easter Ellen. If you need to email me you can or whatever you need. BIG prayers for you!
            MM

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          3. You are so precious and sweet. Thank you so very much for your kind kind ways I so love your personality and your spirit.

            God did a great job when he made you. I’m not completely saintly when it comes to pain and cry my eyes out if it’s really that and then I have to have something for it. Today though I haven’t been able to because of the fever they haven’t been able to give me painkillers as my blood pressure so very low and they won’t let it go any lower

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          4. I contacted JM and we prayed for you! She’s praying too for you! OH my I feel so badly for you. I can’t imagine no pain killers I’m so sorry and ask God to cover you with his healing power and take your pain away in Jesus name!
            JM will be right here too! We will hold you up to the Father! I sent you a song. Sweet Hour of Prayer, nothing sweeter then when we can talk to the Father on behalf of a sister in need!

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          5. Both you and Jeanne Marie are such special sweet ladies. I am so very blessed that you would even consider doing this for me. I thank you so much

            To be honest with you I was starting a fever about 15 minutes ago and now I’m sweating instead which means that the fever might not come. This makes me very happy as it will mean I get to go home a little sooner. Bless you both so much and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
            🌸❌💐🌻💐❌🌸
            Easter

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          6. Oh yes I pray your body fights while you rest! Those infections are so painful! I am here if you need me to talk to! I don’t have to work tomorrow. Yay!
            When Alex was in the hospital for 28 days I had no one there with me but God.
            I read Mother Teresa’s book that said this:
            Trees grow in silence, grass grows in silence
            Silence your eyes
            Silence your mind
            Silence your ears
            For it is in the Silence
            that the voice of God
            speaks to your heart.
            It’s true Easter,
            there was no cure for Alex’s illness and the doctors tried everything and I can’t tell you what she endured, chest tubes, 2400 liters of fluid was drained from her lungs. Eventually her body started to fight. I believe it was God well I know it was God. I can’t explain it I only hope that you will read this and know! I felt to share this with you. I was there for 28 days day and night, I can’t say I prayed anything fancy, but I was silent and believed. Has nothing to do with me and everything to do with God. I know this!

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          7. You are so very right Michelle Marie, God does listen in the silence. I think actually he likes when we pray from the quieter parts of our heart rather than the boisterous out loud praying. I also like to speak of God with a gentle voice like you do and also JeanMarie does is such a blessing to have him. And like you I give all the credit for all the wonders to GOD 💖

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          8. Sorry I pushed send too fast for my little phone. I was going to say that I really feel yucky right now because I can’t have any war Feener other painkillers that would do any work because of my low blood pressure. I’m hoping I’ll be able to go home tomorrow or at the latest Tuesday I thank you so much for your prayers and thank you for your thoughts and thank you for your care and for the wonderful person that you are.

            God bless you very much Michelle Marie. 💖💖💝💝😘

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          9. It’s ok! I really am here for you! JM should be online at PINK so we are here for you! We got two or more gathered together! That’s an army! I ask God to surround you like a hug, so you know and can feel it. I will pray for you like I do Alex. I can’t stand it when someone is in pain.

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          10. I am touched beyond words. Thank you so much. I’m going to Pop in to see a little bit of what You Two have been up to, but I’m ready to go to sleep soon so please don’t be offended if I fall asleep.
            I am so very, very thankful.

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          11. Big smile on my face, thank you so very much but my eyes are closing on me so I don’t think I have much time online left on my phone so bless you both tonight and have a wonderful evening and I think you both from the bottom of my heart

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          12. Awwww thank you so much Michelle Marie. I am still feeling quite rough, but there is an improvement since yesterday which is good. I’m still getting a low-grade fever however I think that it will be gone by tomorrow. At least I hope so. I so appreciate all the time and prayers that you have given. It means so very much to me. I hope that your day is richly blessed and that God’s presence surrounds you

            Much love,
            Easter 😘😇

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          13. So you are still there! Darn! I was hoping you got to go home. Well I have to say you are in the best place really if you need care. I think the worse thing is to suffer at home with no help! 😀 Let it to the professionals, rest and get well! 😀 I’m praying and thinking of you. Actually I’m listening to the music I posted for you yesterday. I find such peace in it. Much love to you sweet one! 😀

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          14. Hi Michelle Marie,

            You are right in every case. It is better to be here getting the care that I need them being home and begging the kids to get a glass of water. They have seen me sick for so long that it doesn’t even phase them.

            My fever is higher rate now and I found out that mimic pneumonia has come back also as if things weren’t bad enough. I feel positive though because the drug that the doctor put me on is one of strongest in the world.

            I haven’t even been able to write I feel so sick. I was really hoping I could post at least a couple of things to get ahead in my writing. But every time I open my eyes to start writing something they just fall asleep post again I start shaking with a fever. Tomorrow is another day and I know that I will heal soon. It’s just a matter of time and rest right now.

            Lots of love thanks so very much for all of your prayers. It means the world to me.

            Talk to you soon,

            Easter💖😇🌺💝🌸💝🌺😇💖

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          15. I wrote a comment under the message itself but thank you so very much. I was so put at piece listening to this on my iPhone and all I can say is thank you so much it’s so beautiful. 🌸💖💝💖🌸

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          16. I wanted to tell you this that this is what I do is listen to a certain song and the peace of God just washes over me. It literally came on my playlist first. I knew it was for you!

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  3. Thank you, I did sleep very well thank you very much. I’m still feeling very rough but I guess better than yesterday after the surgery. So far today I don’t have the fear fever which is a miracle.

    Thank you and thank you to Jeanne qMarie for your prayers And I love it has meant so much to me.

    Bless you lots, Easter

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      1. Thank you so much, dear friend. My sister is on her way here to the hospital to assist me with taking a shower and just fixing things up a little bit since I haven’t been feeling very well. I’m very excited to see her and spend time with her she has a way of making my hospital always a little more fun.

        Big hugs and lots of love,

        Easter

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          1. She is such a sweetheart. Both of my sister and my brother are. She helped me shower, get organized, made me laugh a lot and lifted my spirits so much 😊. I may not feel good at all, but she made me feel great!!

            Tony and his daughters spent some time here also so I was doubly blessed 💖💖. My sister said that she was amazed at how much we feel like a family to her as the younger girl climbed up onto my lap and played with my hair as the older one chatted away with me about her day. It was so nice. 🌸🌺🌺🌸

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  4. This is a good post. So many want to use the scripture about ‘by his stripes’ as a tool to manipulate God into doing the healing we want. He does heal, but, as you say, not as we picture it.

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    1. Thank you so very much for joining as one of the followers of this rather new blog of overcoming with God’s help.

      I’m so glad that you found a nugget of truth that you could relate to.

      I try to take scripture and put it in use as the hand of God in love. I know that there are times that God has disciplined, but in my view, that is God’s job, not ours. We are to encourage each other to love each other and to bless each other any way we can.

      Thank you again for your wonderful comment and I hope to see more of you in the future, bless you lots and lots Easter

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