I don’t feel good today, God
Today I’m going to:
Pray for the healing that You give
Only through Your grace and love, shall I ever live
Feeling ill, whether acutely ill for a short time or chronically ill, is devastating. The effects can dig deeply into our being, eroding our spirit, etching ugly scars into our heart and defeating us to the point of deep, dark depression.
It is easy to question God when it comes to illness. As I have suffered chronic illness for years, I have always believed in what Jesus spoke at the end saying “it is finished”. Those three words to me supported all that He had taught his disciples about healing, teaching, faith, love, God and everything else.
We are told that “by His stripes we are healed”. So why, then, do we not always heal? Why is it that I still have the illness that has since compiled itself into other chronic illnesses.
And then I just understood. By His stripes I am healed. In this time of my illness, I have drawn closer to God than I ever would have drawn had life kept going along as it was. Comfortable for the most part, health wise.
In my illness, I have needed God. God has patiently worked with me on my spirit. I have eliminated things that offended God, that hurt my own life. I have believed more and more. I have been striving to share His love, to gently allow others to see the love He gives me in my life. My life is His testimony of overcoming to becoming the person He has planned for me to be all along. I have far to go, but I now see that the healing is not always as we picture it, but rather as He has planned.
Ps 103:3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases