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Looked Over

Looked Over

Lord, sometimes i feel that I am always looked over

Today, I’m going to:

 

To better understand your plan

That I will will not pity myself as You hold me in Your hand

 

How many times in life do you feel as you if you’ve bee looked over, that people see you just as another dandelion in a field of thousands?

Photo by Easter Ellen
Photo by Easter Ellen

Sometimes we feel hurt when someone else got picked for the job, as if someone else is always chosen because they have more charisma. We hurt when we are in a room of people and nobody notices.

 

It is sometimes difficult to see these things as anything other than they are; a looming hurt that just won’t go away as we continue to feel like the one not noticed.

 

Yet, where is our faith? How do we even begin to look at ourselves an our lives’ plan? Where is God in this and why does He not intervene?

 

Faith is a tricky thing at first and the more that we discipline ourselves to trusting Our loving Creator, the more that we can draw from the relationship that we are building with Him.

 

It is like this: when you meet a new friend, you automatically don’t trust this person with much, but as you get to know them more, you see the kindness in their heart, how much you enjoy their company and slowly allow them into your lives; hearts that become vulnerable, allowing the trust to grow.

 

So it is with God. When we newly begin a relationship with Him, trust is not our first instinct. In time we begin trusting Him, we don’t even know what faith is (except the definition in the dictionary).  That itself is the essence of faith, to jump from the unknown to set our hope on something unseen.

 

This trust and faith is pivotal in understanding the beauty of God’s love and who we are; who He created us to be. if the creator of all of Heaven and earth loves you with the unconditional and unending love that He has with you,

 

 

Matt 17:20          If you have faith so small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain move from here to there and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

Shattered Heart

Shattered Heart

Lord.. I cannot take the pain anymore. Why, when I’ve tried so hard, is my heart so broken?

Today I’m going to…

Give my heart to Your tender, loving hands,

Only You can put the pieces back, as only You can understand 

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A broken heart. Sattered, bereft, lying in pieces at the loss of love.

Why must we endure such pain? Why do we have to go through this? It feels like it will never end, as we are so deeply hurt that the feeling is physically painful to us, choking our spirits and bodies.

When we look to God to heal our pain, we must trust that He will. We must believe that He is the loving, tender Father that cares about all of our burdens, all of our woes, all of our grief. He promises us that He will restore us in all that has been robbed of us in life. He promises to heal our hearts and spirits.

Our job is to just believe and keep believing. Know that going through the pain of losing love, whether from a break-up or a death, God; tender and merciful, is holding us in the palm of His hands.

Luke 4:18

The spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has sent me to heal the broken-hearted.

Untimely Passing

Untimely Passing

Lord.. Why do You take people we love before they’ve lived a full, long life?

Today I’m going to…

Ask You once again why my loved one is now gone

I’ll keep an open heart and look to You to carry on

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There is nothing as difficult as losing a loved one before they have a chance to experience a full life and reach an older age. Even when a loved one has aged it is still difficult to get through the grieving. We find ourselves torn by the pain, enraged by the untimeliness, screaming inside with the “WHY??” of it. “Where was God?”, we ask.

We are always told that we will eventually have all of the answers or that “it was God’s will”. “How can it be God’s will?” we ask ourselves. “How could God let this happen?”

I recently saw a program that had interviewed several people that had experienced Near-Death Experiences. These are people who had for a brief few moments actually experienced death. Each of the people described an overwhelming feeling of love that they were consumed and engulfed in. This does not answer “why”, but it gave me tremendous comfort in having recently lost a close friend and knowing that both my grandmother and my father were taken before their own time. Knowing that they are in this wonderful place of God’s love; knowing that they are waiting for me; knowing that although my heart pains and longs for them, that they are waiting for me with love and joy, blesses my heart.

Turn to God in your pain. He is our comforter, our maker, our Father in the most loving and caring way. Pray that He will give you peace beyond understanding. You will find peace in praying with Him and love in speaking with Him.

 

Revelation 21:4 (NIV)

‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

When Life is in Ruins

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Lord, I feel as if my life is just ruining around me

Today I’m going to…

Close my eyes, Lord You’re the calm within my storm

You give me peace I can’t understand and bring me to a norm

So often life seems to bring one sad and sorry trouble after the next. Sometimes those things are small, sometimes they are unbearable. Together, they can make us feel as if our life is literally just lying in ruins all around us.

 

When life faces us with those very difficult days,  there can be times when we don’t know if we can take anymore; times when we just don’t know if we can take another day of it.

 

There are so many promises that God makes to us in the bible that tells us just how very much He loves us. There is no burden that He does not care for and will not see us through. The perfect Father, ever beside you.

 

Isaiah 30:18

Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!

On Being Irritable

Lord, I feel so irritable today, I have no patience and everything is annoying me

Today I’m going to

Say a prayer, to regain patience in my heart

I know that you can calm my soul & let Your love be what I impart

There are days when we are just irritable. We can get easily annoyed, bothered by the slightest sound, agitated by anyone’s and everyone’s presence.

 

On days like this, I have learned to just pray repeatedly for patience. Sometimes I will apologize to those around me in advance for the mood that I am in (which seems to change my outlook almost immediately). Sometimes it is a day wrought with prayer to overcome this irritability. Either way, when we ask God for help, He is ever there for us.

 

Next time you are feeling annoyed as an overall mood, try perhaps explaining to those around you and ask them to be “patient” with you as you are impatient and pray to God to ask for a more loving attitude.

 

Colossians 1:11

being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience

Feeling Lifeless

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Lord, I feel like I’ve had the life sucked out of me.. I am so tired and weak

Today, I’m going to

Say a prayer, and know that you restore

My health, my spirit and my strength now and forevermore

Sometimes life is so difficult that we feel as if someone or something has just “sucked the life” out of us. Days like this can be discouraging, defeating and difficult to face.

 

God is the renewer of our strength. When, with even the tiniest bit of faith, we can lift our hearts and pray, asking and trusting God to restore our faith, we will find that He will bless us with a feeling of being capable and with new hope. God is the restorer of our soul. He never runs out of strength for us to lean on and use.

 

Take a baby step of faith and allow Him to bless you today.

 

Isaiah 40:31

But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint

I Feel Ill

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Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Lord, I feel sick..

Today I’m going to….

Take a healing breath, inhaling God’s wonderful Grace

And know that He has promised healing, whatever is our case

So many times, at my very worst, I have just felt sick. In the midst of so many difficult life struggles, my body started to react with depression, then, a feeling of constant illness. Eventually, the illness got named, but it still was depressing to feel sick day after day.

 

God promises us two things that get me through how I feel when I feel ill. That He will never give us more than we can bare, and that when Jesus died for us, our illnesses were healed.

 

What has always stood out to me in this scripture about healing is that it is written in the present, not the past. Not “you were healed”, but rather “by his wounds, you are healed”. This is powerful. If you think about it, it makes this sentence eternally present, eternally effective for every moment that you are in, today and forever.

 

Grab on to this verse and believe that it is meant for you at this very moment. Know that God is longing to shower His love on you and heal your broken spirit, your hurting heart, your body, your mind.

 

Isaiah 53:5 But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Why Me?

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Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Lord, Why Me?

Today I’m going to…

Know that You are God and plan my Life

That You are with me in the calm and with me throughout strife

The age-old question. We all ask it. Why me? (.ie; the cheating spouse, the lack of finances, the illness, the hardship, the depression or anxiety, the fear, the circumstances, the struggling that others just don’t seem to get the same amount of, no matter what the struggle is)

 

This is a hard question to beat ourselves with. Ours is not the answer except to know that He has planned every day of our lives. What others do, is of their own free will and sadly, it affects our lives, in many circumstances. Then we ask. Why? Why did You let that happen?

 

God gives all of us free will and sometimes that free will hurts others, but God does not interrupt free will. Sometimes it is devastating, sometimes it is circumstantial, such as the loss of a loved one due to illness, or illness of our own and still we ask “why me”?

 

God loves you. God does not want your suffering and He asks us to trust Him with our struggles and to know that it is for our good and His glory (in seeing us through it) and that we will pass through such things in HIS strength and in our trust in Him.

 

Deuteronomy 31:8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

Intimidated

 

 

Photo by Easter Ellen
Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Lord, I feel so intimidated by my own lack of ability

Today I’m going to:

Remember God has created me in His image

I shall go in confidence knowing this and I shall not be timid

Why is it that we always see our faults instead of our strengths. Why is it that we see where others are so competent, so capable and so confident and yet, when we look in the mirror, we only see weakness and inability.

 

God has created all of us uniquely and it is a wonderful thing to see others’ strengths and their abilities. Do not measure your own ability against theirs for you have your own unique gifts, your own purpose day after day and your own beautiful attributes that make you who you are.

 

I used to measure myself against colleagues, friends that have been very successful, others who chose more wisely in marriage. In time, I have seen that we all struggle. That the brightest picture always has its flaws. They are not the same as my own, but God has shown me that every heart struggles in one way or another.

 

Be blessed knowing that you are a son or daughter of the Most High God, that He is your protector, your shield and your worth, to Him is so much that He allowed His beloved Son to suffer, die and atone for your sake.

 

Believe in the beauty within your spirit that God has created.

 

Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

 

Not Worthy of Your Love

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Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Lord, I feel so unworthy of Your wonderful love

Today I’m going to..

Remember that He loved me before I was made

In my best and in my worst, His love will always stay

*****

I have done so much wrong in my life. You are God. Your son came to carry all sin, yet still, I see so much I’ve done wrong. I can’t imagine that I am worthy of Your love.

 

God tells us that He loves us and when we ask forgiveness, it is done. He does not see us as we see ourselves, He sees our spirit, the truth of who we are. Yes, that includes the parts that we’d rather hide, but it also shows the longing in our hearts to be good, to please God, to do well. Take comfort in this for He loves us beyond our understanding and so much more than we can ever feel we are worthy of. The fact is, we are not worthy, but He loves us at our best and our worst, as a parent loves their child, even when they misbehave. The love does not leave because of behavior. It stats because it has no end. It is eternal and it is constant.

 

Matt 7:11 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Father who is in heaven give good things to them that ask Him?