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Feeling Ill

Feeling Ill

I don’t feel good today, God

Today I’m going to:

Pray for the healing that You give

Only through Your grace and love, shall I ever live

Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Feeling ill, whether acutely ill for a short time or chronically ill, is devastating. The effects can dig deeply into our being, eroding our spirit, etching ugly scars into our heart and defeating us to the point of deep, dark depression.

 

It is easy to question God when it comes to illness. As I have suffered chronic illness for years, I have always believed in what Jesus spoke at the end saying “it is finished”. Those three words to me supported all that He had taught his disciples about healing, teaching, faith, love, God and everything else.

 

We are told that “by His stripes we are healed”. So why, then, do we not always heal? Why is it that I still have the illness that has since compiled itself into other chronic illnesses.

 

And then I just understood. By His stripes I am healed. In this time of my illness, I have drawn closer to God than I ever would have drawn had life kept going along as it was. Comfortable for the most part, health wise.

 

In my illness, I have needed God. God has patiently worked with me on my spirit. I have eliminated things that offended God, that hurt my own life. I have believed more and more. I have been striving to share His love, to gently allow others to see the love He gives me in my life. My life is His testimony of overcoming to becoming the person He has planned for me to be all along. I have far to go, but I now see that the healing is not always as we picture it, but rather as He has planned.

 

Ps 103:3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases

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Waiting

Waiting

Lord, the waiting is so very hard.. please help me through this

Today I’m going to:

Close my eyes and see You touching me

Help me to be patient as my faith can grow in You

Photo by Easter Ellen

 

Waiting. We wait for answers. We wait for miracles. We wait for the right person. We wait for courage. We wait for faith. We wait and we wait. It almost seems against our human nature to wait, and yet we must.

 

We ask God why we have to wait. I am a very impatient person by nature and wait is a four-letter word to me. I don’t like it. Sorry – I didn’t like it, until I came to see the richness that God has blessed me with in waiting.

 

Waiting is truly God’s way of allowing us to choose to hone our faith, to draw closer to Him, to grow our trust in Him.

 

Waiting is our time to be able to thank God. “For what”, my impatience says. For the beauty of the growth that God blesses me with as I have waited out so many difficult circumstances in my life.

 

I like to refer to our little friend the caterpillar quite a bit and so I will again. It is in waiting that the beauty and magic happens.

 

As the little caterpillar struggles, fights and cries his way to get loose from his prison, his wings gather the strength they will need to carry the weight of his body to soar above the earth in wonder. Any sooner than when God breaks Him loose and the little guy would parish.

 

So it is with us. Our spirit, feeling imprisoned as it is made to wait, gains the gift of long-suffering. “Gift?” you ask. Gift. In this time of waiting and suffering, our needy and weak-feeling spirit reaches in the dark to our Creator. Reaches through the strife to find the hand of Him who will hold us through eternity. Reaches and grows.

 

He is always waiting for us there.

 

Isaiah 40:31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. 

**So many of my WP friends are going through difficult times. I pray for you all and know that the Lord is with you. Today’s devotional was inspired by Michelle Marie, who together with Jeanne Marie are very special people, indeed. Please join me in praying for her family as they are facing a difficult time of waiting.